Re-entering the matrix

Spiritual journey 2-step:

  1. See the matrix (and distinguish it from reality).
  2. Re-enter.

In the Matrix movie, Neo volunteers to go back in to save the (real) world — and it’s a personal test.

Is he The One? He is when he believes.

Like most people, in my teens, 20s and early 30s, my matrix or mind-body frameworks were deeply rooted in a) the way the world works b) how I (and sometimes others) ought to be and c) how I needed to be, to get by.

When we see our personal matrix we become aware of when we’re genuine and connected to what’s real and vital and true versus when we’re acting from our scripts. We’re empowered to choose differently — we can choose to run the same patterns if and when they’re useful. It’s more fun and fruitful when we know we’re doing it and why.

The matrix gets a bad rap, but it’s neither good or bad by default. In fact we have a lot to be grateful for when it comes to our “automaticity of being.” As certain skills (these can be anything we repeatedly practice) become second nature, our resources are freed up for other things. Imagine trying to swim or run fast when you haven’t nailed down your breathing. Or a great date when you’re not easily able to interpret your own or the other person’s signals.

The matrix is useful, and the matrix is limiting. It’s structural, functional, efficient by its own logic. It wants you to do and experience things you already know. Including your own sense of self, core beliefs and your emotions.

Disrupting our matrices involves a period of unlearning and depending on how deep the patterns run it can fundamentally shake personal foundations or feel like an emotional rollercoaster.

I love ontological change work because it’s fundamentally innovative. Those who do it get to build new matrices, new structures — knowing they’ll eventually build on or adapt them. Done well, it’s never change for change’s sake or a band-aid on a problem. It’s change from and for joy and love. It is strong, soulful and spirited.

One of the most humbling realizations, particularly for do gooders, is that some of their matrix patterns are dark, rooted in traumas, anger, fear, shame, insecurities or sadness they’d rather not have witnessed, acted upon or experienced. Or that we’ve been handed down patterns, in the form of beliefs, that aren’t well tailored for present opportunities or context.

We can only transcend these patterns individually and collectively when we acknowledge, understand and forgive them. If we don’t, we perpetuate conflict, dysfunction and stagnation in our systems in various guises.

As we move through them, paying them our respects, we can address them, or let them go. There is joy, lightness, connection and transcendence. We move quickly. We no longer limit ourselves or others.

When we see the matrix and stay plugged in, we’re empowered to be of highest service, for ourselves, our communities and the collective. We make inspired and inspiring acts of love, and leave legacies of health and honor.

Interested in identifying the matrix patterns of your leadership? Check out Last Word On Power by Tracy Goss.

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